Crossdressing gives me fulfillment: It makes me whole
Crossdressing gives me fulfillment: it makes me whole, makes me feel happy and content
Almost every crossdresser will tell you roughly the same thing about their dressing journey.
Such a journey may have started from tentative beginnings, perhaps when they accidentally discovered they enjoyed wearing certain articles of women’s clothing to all the way to developing the finished product years later—a beautiful woman adorned in her En Femme outfits, with make-up, wigs, jewelry and other adornments, going out and about on the town, wanting to be seen and admired.
On the other hand, not every crossdresser ends up completing their journey by being a fully dressed, completely made-up beauty—and there are plenty who stop at different stages along the way; they may simply enjoy dressing in the confines of their homes in bras and panties, stockings and garters from En Femme, and admiring in the mirror how they look; others may go for a certain look such as short mini-skirts and tight tops, high heels -a look some may call girly or slutty but, hey, our crossdresser knows what he likes and why not?
Then there are crossdressers who, somewhere along the way, realize that they absolutely need to do more than just dress occasionally and, in fact, are on the transgender side of the spectrum—and that they really need to be living full–time as a female (with or without cosmetic or other surgery).
So, even though we are all fundamentally similar in having the unquenchable, unresolved desire to cross dress, what we sometimes tend to disagree on are two key things: first, why we cross dress and, second, what does dressing up as a female bring to our lives?
If you did a survey among a good sample of crossdressers and posed to them the following questions, I’m sure many of the answers would be something along the lines of:
Crossdressing:
- helps me relax after a stressful day at work or with the family; it’s so wonderful to take some time to myself, be able to shower, shave and slip into slinky underwear, a tight-fitting dress and become my alter ego, even if it’s only for a few hours or so.
- allows the more feminine side of me to be revealed every so often; not every man has to be a macho-type who loves to race cars or motorbikes and or get his hands dirty changing engine oil; many of us have a more sensitive side lying semi–dormant within and it’s great to be able to enjoy this side of ourselves.
- allows me to express myself outside of the confines of the traditional male role people expect me to play every day; men are so confined by colors and styles and shapes of clothing, the way they are expected to behave and respond to certain situations.
- is an experience which others who do not cross dress can never truly appreciate; the overpowering sense of enchantment never goes away; the excitement is forever there and the anticipation leading up to a time when you can cross dress is unmatched.
- brings me a peace of mind which you cannot seem to find with other activities such as playing or watching sport, or meeting with (male) friends where the conversation centers around things which don’t really interest me
And lastly a BIG one:
It makes me feel whole, it make me feel complete! It’s almost as if a missing part of my life, of my character, of me suddenly falls into place and I am a better, all-around person when dressed in women’s clothes. Apart from the physical changes I can make to my appearance, my character changes, my perspective on life is different and I am more content and at peace with myself and the world (at least for a while)!
Do any of these thoughts resonate with you? Do you see any similarities in the way you feel and how you look at the world when you are in your En Femme attire? If so, post a comment below us and let us know!
Kathy my dear your exquisite prose couldn’t have come at a more opportune time for me. You see, for the last 3 months I’ve had the most beautiful change in my life – I’ve been able to dress almost 24-7! YES! OMG, I’ve made the most exciting and positive use of this precious time – refining my routine, working on details, refining my make-up, wardrobe pairing, lipstick colors, slit versus non-slit skirts – what a whirlwind of pleasure! But the most satisfying moment came when I was 2 months into my “Feminine Heaven” , freshly showered, shaved, silky smooth and lovely-lotioned. I held my gorgeous Anti-Flirt stretchy knit, ivory, thong panty, button front bodysuit and a sheer delight 10 denier Donna Karan Just Sheer to my lovely waist pantyhose in a light Palomino shade and told myself: This is all I’m going to wear all day long! …with various 5-6 inch heels of course. LOL! That’ when it hit me – I’ve reached Nirvana!!!I have been noticing my need for dressing has increased and my desires both physical and emotional have intensified in a most beautiful way. I’ve reached the absolute pinnacle of my feminine journey! It’s here at last! I look and feel the sexiest and most beautiful I’ve ever felt – sexually it couldn’t be more satisfying. I stay in shape and my “Feminine Blessings” as I now refer to the intensely pleasurable, feminine cums I experience while tightly tucked in my sheerest pantyhose are so beautiful I still gasp when I’m at that gorgeous moment. My days are like this usually, I dress in about 1 and ½ hours, so, there I am, standing in my full length mirror in my Anti-Flirt bodysuit, the panty rolled up to the tiniest thong possible, up to the waistband of my pantyhose, gorgeous teasing dark trim either side of that lovely thong panty, and that ever so thin pantyhose center seam showing thru the thin panty ivory bodysuit – lovely. My breast forms showing just enough darkness at the tips for teaseability. My Murano 6 inch nude buckle strap mules and my blonde curly wig tied flirtatiously back to a small bun in back. Love that Pink Revlon lipstick. Red Cherry #199 naughty lashes. Gold hoop earrings. At this point my tucked lovely feels so like my feminine vagina I’m totally a woman at this point – it has never been this good! OMG – I look absolutely gorgeous and OH SO NAUGHTY!!!!! I LOVE IT!!!! LOL Its heaven! This is the naughty side I always wanted to be – as crazy as that sounds I know. My feminine blessing is imminent at this point as the pleasure is so intense! It’s just me – Kim – no one else at this point – I’m going to enjoy this lovely blessing as long as I can! Each step in these heels, hose and silky thong panty bodysuit is just heaven! I purposely squeeze my booty cheeks for more beautiful feminine pleasure! Gawd this is so good! Totally immersed in my pleasure I look up see my neighbor’s gardener peeking over the fence to see. I wink at him, lick my lips, smooth up my silky nylons as I pout at him, wiggle my booty to my screen door, all the while looking over my shoulder at my cute prey and stopping to reel in all this loveliness. Just then – explosive and as pleasurable as I’ve ever felt – I totally explode with THEE most beautiful, intense, feminine blessing while looking ever so longingly at my admirer – OMG…I feel the beautiful intensity! So lovely, just absolutely lovely. I’ve done this so many times but this one was special – it’s really me, I’m here. Loving life! Thank you EnFemme and all you gorgeous ladies for allowing me to share and thank you for all you support and lovely products! I love you guys!!! Hugs, Kim
My story is very much like Gina Marie's except for having support from my wife. Nice to hear that someone else feels the way I do.
To say the truth, crossdressing makes me feel a lot different because that sensation those female clothes give to the male skin. I only crossdress when I’m really out of my parents, family and friends sight (because all of them are TOO conservative, and that’s the why I don’t have any support from them).
My “story” with crossdressing is this: I started it at 12 years, testing with a little bit of clothes less than five minutes when away from anyone’s sight (as said in the earlier paragraph) like cotton panties and short jeans (one was tight, and the other was just the size). At 13 tried bra sets, blouses and pants. At 14 was my first time wearing a pink thong (and one day I was wearing it for all the day under my male shorts, and hiding it into a replacement part little box even my mother never touched it. That was taken lent from a lot of clothes to wash). At 15 was my best moment ever with the crossdressing (and was an UNIQUE and UNFORGETTABLE experience, and up today this was never repeated), because I was alone at home (my parents and sister got to a night party with only adults, and I was a teenager) and took a moment to wear for less than a hour (every item was taken “lent” from an aunt): Black M size panty, black 34B size bra (with socks balls to simulate the bosoms), a powernet waist cincher, nude colour pantyhose, a green long sleeved and turtle neck leotard, 12 size black jeans, 7 size booties with zipper and thick heels, a collar with black stones, makeup (only compact powder, red lipstick and colouring my eyelids with green), some flowers parfum and painting my nails. This made me feel so different, like something never imagined in all my life. After that, I crossdressed other times, but the feeling experience was not the same ever.
I hope someday the horrible and awful situation of my country is gone to start to purchase some En Femme stuff (such as gaffs, Fem Curves formula bottles and more) and have new experiences in the crossdressing art.
Thank you so much for reading!!!
There is no doubt now that Tracy is who I am meant to be. In this discovery, I have found that I am what certain Native American tribes refer to as a "two-spirit", i.e. someone who embraces BOTH sides of themselves equally, and can be happy in either one. I absolutely LOVE being femme, and I have a wife who is not only supportive, but helps me with my attire, my makeup, etc. We laugh as we go over makeup palettes together, and she gives me a jokingly bad time when I am searching out clothes online.
I fully embrace both sides of who I am, and I can be Tracy whenever I want (or NEED) to be. Sometimes there is that feeling that I just need to be Tracy, and I am. I am both all of the time, and I express Tracy as often as I can. It's funny, my mother-in law and sister-in-law know, and have no issues. Two of my sons know, (the other two just haven't asked), and many of my friends know, and love and accept me in either incarnation.
Not only is it fulfilling, it is a part of my spirituality, and I know that I am truly blessed.
Hugs,
Tracy
I have been dressing since I was about 7 years old when I first discovered my mothers satiny body shaper. What prompted me to put it on? What was I even in her dresser drawers at all!? ;-) These and many other questions I have pondered over the years before finally coming to the realization that the "why" doesn't really matter unless I am trying to change or "fix" something…which I am not!
I have noticed that as I've grown older (I'm now 61) the feminine side of me is more prevalent than before. Where I used to go through phases like the changing seasons, I now alter my wardrobe to go with the seasons rather than go back to boring men's briefs, I go from silky, satin panties during colder months to cotton panties when the weather warms!! I do not have men's underwear in my now panty drawer and I wear bras regularly too. Over the calf nylons have replaced my socks and I love the feel over my freshly shave legs. I have my legs and underarms and I have my chest and brows waxed regularly…I love smooth! I brush my eyelashes each morning as a woman would wearing mascara and will on occasion even apply a wisp…even on workdays, no one seem to notice!
My wife knows I dress (she does our laundry) and asks from time to time why I don't dress more fully around the house. I thank her for her support and explain, while I love the feeling of being in my finest EnFemme lingerie and clothing when she is not here, I know what I actually look like. I don't have many feminine features and I look like a "man in a dress". When I'm alone, this is not a problem, but when she is home, the illusion is just not there, because I know what she sees.
Thank you so much for the articles, they are very supportive and validate my feelings even though these days, I need little validation! ;-)
- Gina
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